Been single
for more than a year and it was nothing but full of new experiences and learnings.
Learnings
that I couldn't possibly knew if I didn't feel the agony of devastation
And experiences
that perhaps I wouldn't dare to get involved if I am committed to someone.
Tons
realizations I have been dealing with until I finally learnt to release the
grudges.
I've been
the wisest and the strongest I should be, because that is what everyone is expecting.
Forgive and
forget, let go and move on. Words those were once hard to accept.
I won’t fall in love that same way I did and if that could mean being wiser, I’d like to congratulate myself for the success. But I keep on asking, until when will I hold my feelings of being in love to someone? And that question leads to another question; I am still being wise here or a coward? Now that confuses me a lot.
I want to
love and to be loved but I don’t want to be committed because I don’t want to
expect. All the drama that I want to get myself
prevented, I don’t know until when.
2 Comments
Let it go and move forward!
ReplyDeleteHello Aix!
ReplyDeleteNice entry. Could relate much with this little article. I was once also got hurt. Galvanized by loving someone who would then, you know, just throw away everything. But you are right.. unless you have forgiven yourself and loved yourself more than ever, you would learn how to move forward. It does not need to be a big step agad.. little by little.. even if it takes you years.. what is important is that you have learned your lessons from past mistakes.. so, until when? I would say, maybe, until you are well prepared to have a commitment again.. :)